As you draw to a close, allow me to express to you my deepest gratitude. You have offered me the opportunity to grow in ways I had never imagined. You have revealed the mystery of stillness, how the chrysalis appears to be dormant, yet all the while it is busily becoming a butterfly.
You have tuned me to the rhythm of the seasons, the grace of the moon phases, and the ebb and flow of weather patterns so that now I better understand the complete wisdom of cycles. You have taught me, not easily, but taught me nonetheless, that letting go is absolutely the only way to step forward. That it is okay for me to walk with heaviness, sadness or loneliness, but I don’t have to carry them on my back as I travel.
I want to thank you also for the gift of more time to watch and listen to animals who model for me how to be in this world without losing my wildness.
You opened me to the magic of synchronicity like the breaching of a whale the moment a gratitude offering is placed in the sea or hearing one of my father’s favorite songs on a day when I was missing him terribly. And it was through the many synchronicities big and small, that I remembered my connection to the Divine.
During you, 2020, I deepened my appreciation for loved ones near and far, and I forged stronger bonds with dear friends, even when I could not be with them in person. You reminded me that hugs and handshakes are priceless jewels never to be taken for granted.
You gave me the courage to master new skills like how to teach Qoya and yoga classes and facilitate intuitive healings remotely. I found out that I can drive long distances without falling asleep and that I can instantly connect with my guides and angels, which is likely why I didn’t fall asleep!
You revealed my shadow side, dear 2020, and the deep dark shadow of the collective, which are really one and the same. You held a clear mirror up to me, so that I was forced to reckon with truths about myself that I would rather not have seen. Truths like my part in systemic racism and my judgements about other people. But you showed me how to dance with this shadow, and that’s how I learned that darkness is essential in order to clearly see the light.
I also got the chance to waltz with fear, as I do every year, but 2020, you encouraged me to switch partners every now and then so I could also experience dancing with love. And I think I’m going to let love take my hand more often.
So many say you were a bad year, 2020, but I disagree. Frightening, demanding, and yes, heart-breaking, but also elegant in your own way, and so vital.
With sincere appreciation for all of the gifts I will carry with me into 2021,